As I was analyzing myself on the following phrase in amazement, I thought of sharing it here so you can analyze yourself too. It’s going to be beneficial inshaAllah. Just take a deep breath, let go of other thoughts for a moment and read on.
Here you go:
ويا من كلما كثرت أوزاره قل استغفاره
[Roughly translated:] And O he, who, whenever his sins increase, his seeking of forgiveness decreases.
Very scary, isn’t it?
Think of it this way, when you’re not seeking forgiveness much, when you don’t feel like crying out of guilt in front of Him, when you’re content with what you’re doing, when you think it’s okay, everything’s cool…. Then you’re actually sinning more! You have increased in His disobedience. :(
Just saying that I seek forgiveness (istighfaar) is not enough, forgiveness has to be really sought. It has to be felt in the heart.
Shaykh asks us,
متى تفيق؟ ومتى تقف بباب مولاك العزيز الغفور الرحيم؟…
…when will you be cured? And when will you stand at the door of your Lord, the Exalted in Might, the Forgiving, the Merciful?